Tedha hai... par mera hai

I have to admit that to spit out, whatever is bothering you inside your system, feels good. I have to admit blogging might be a new fad and a new craze, which has plagued me too, but it did feel better to write the previous one. The best part of it was before writing the previous blog I was talking to Abhay and Batra about how people write stupid things on blog. We also drew it's analogy to bad literature that plagues every generation's good literature and so on. The same evening, in order to prevent my asset (read BlogSpot) from being snatched away by GOOGLE I wrote the previous post. Yes I was happy after writing that and to an extent admiring myself for coming up with a commendable piece of work which I can put up for the world to see. I was gloating secretly "yes I too blogged."

Then in the wave of excitement I forwarded my link to Batra first using gtalk and his reply was "kya hai ye bakwaas? kaun itna stupid ho sakta hai?" I did realize... neither my blog nor my BlogSpot id mentions or suggests my name. Also I didn't tell him that I wrote it! I felt a wave of shiver, that people might not like what i wrote. Deep down i felt shattered. Thereafter I was careful, whomever I forwarded the link I wrote "maine likha hai.... it's my first time" Thankfully other remarks were not on the same line as the first one.

Later at night I was talking to Amol and obviously the desire to hear some words of praise and appreciation forced me to mention that 'I blogged.' He replied "I too used to blog but you know what! You tend to get carried away. Instead of blogging about what your feelings are, you start blogging about things which will make your blog worth reading. Things those are cool and spicy. You tend to seek recognition and appreciation instead of feedback".

This compelled me to think what the main objective of blogging is? I know this is not an issue which has any political or social effect. But since I am spending my time trying to write these stuff, i got to know, why am I doing it? If I am doing it to get things out of my system and just let others know what I feel, then it shouldn't matter what others think about it! Why are people afraid to write? just because some morons who have no better job than to criticize it (btw Batra you are not a moron!!! And here I am not at all refering to you) and instead of respecting the freedom of expression people post stupid comments to humiliate the writer. I am writing this because this is what I am feeling right now. I do realise that may be what i wrote is crap or bullshit but when i wrote the first blog i felt happy and proud after that.

I like what amol was telling to me 'If you are looking for anything substantial then this might notbe the place and I don't give a fuck what you feel about it. Still if you are jobless enough to read this be my guest'. Oh what a coincidence by the way!!! Someone in my wing is playing the song "kuch to log kahenge logon ka kaam hai kehna" (lame!! I know)